AHHHHH

Now word on the street is "our baby probably isn't born yet"...$%&#!!!

Word on the street is that we should get a referral by Christmas! My hopes are up, this could be dangerous...

Baby Wait?

...still waiting...

Nesting

I haven't really been writing much lately, well, because there is nothing really to report on the adoption front. We are still waiting and have now been told that we will need to travel to Ethiopia twice before bringing our baby home. At first, the idea of going twice stressed me out and seemed like a burden. Now the thought of it actually excites me. First of all, we will get to see, hold, love our baby sooner than we thought we would be able to-what a blessing! We will also be able to experience the Ethiopian culture first hand a couple, instead of once in a whirlwind, of times which is amazing. For some reason hearing that we were going to get to go twice renewed my excitement for the whole thing-for some reason it seems sooner and more real now:) I have started "nesting", if you will, getting ready for the baby to come home. We got Jackson a big boy bed and told him the baby will be sleeping it the crib. He got really excited about a baby coming but can't quite wrap his head around why the baby can't come now! I was also inspired (thanks Kristen) to use eco friendly diapers this time around and got excited while looking at the gdiaper website!!! You know you are ready for baby #2 when the thought of diapers give you a thrill:) Not much more to report for now...

Motherhood

When I dreamed of becoming a mother I never really could grasp what it would mean. Would I be a good mom? Would I even like my kids? I knew I would probably love my kids but to actually like them I knew was a different story. I have been blown away by motherhood thus far, learning more than I ever imagined. Loving Jackson is the most refreshingly effortless thing I have ever experienced. I love his sweet nature. I love his precious ears. I love his snuggles. I just plain old love him! I hear women say sometimes that becoming a mother made them lose themselves. I have found it to be quite the opposite. Sure I don't look particularly glamorous in my oversized sweatpants and yellow hoodie but I have found some of the best parts of me coming to the surface in the last two years. Thank you Jackson for teaching me what it means to love!